Camo, Jam & I went to Raffy’s (Erickson’s son) 1st birthday party down south. We were there to finally see his son (and lovely wife, Rachell) for the first time and to catch up on what we have missed on each other’s lives. It has been so long time since we last hanged out. Erickson really “looked like a dad now” (-Camo). 2 years ago he was this hyper designer dude. Well now, he’s still the same but add the daddy image and subtract the spiky hair.
Trivia: We got Raffy a huge toy drawing thingo for kids 3+ even though he’s only 1.
“Erickson, pagsawaan mo muna yan bago mo ibigay sa anak mo!”
Hahah! And who knows, the kid may have artistic inclinations like his dad. What if he can learn how to draw at age 1? Art genius? Yes or no? We’d never know until we let him try.
After the party, the girls and I headed north to my aunt’s home to drop off our things. We had the house to ourselves because my aunt and uncle went to Tagaytay for a weekend yoga session. After fixing up and after having a little rest, we went to High Street to party more at Mag:net where Pepe — our beloved professor and school-daddy — and his wicked band (Eternal Now!) are playing. As usual, the bar was packed with CSB boys and girls. The event was produced by Arok Diwa.
Mag:net is awesome. In contrast to the one in Katipunan which was dark and small, Mag:net in High Street rocks. The place rocks and I love the stage for being well-lit (we photographers value the light hehehe). I also love the Beer Below Zero. Ice cold beer below zero degrees is the jebs!
The bands that played are: Ajka (the band with the chick who looks like Ciara Sotto, sings like Kitchie Nadal, and who tries to imitate Up Dharma Down’s vox), Fuseboxx, Up Dharma Down, Eternal Now, Mayonnaise and Crude Oz. I took a lot of photos. I’ll be posting them as soon as I’m done.
It was my third time to see Up Dharma Down play. Armi has definitely changed a lot. She was Gypsy-and-goth-ish when I first saw her play at my high school. She had long black hair back then. Now she’s sporting a bob. Her singing’s better and their new tunes are interesting.
Eternal Now is really wicked. Especially with their vocalist, Benedict! (’Twas our first time to hear him because he left the band a few months ago and just came back.) And it has only been a couple of weeks when news spread about Sir Chad (guitar) becoming the first and only Filipino endorser of Ibanez guitars! Pepe told us they’re planning to release their album this year (their 10th year!) after the long (and almost eternal?) wait. Woooohoooo!
I was never a fan of Mayonnaise but when I saw them for the second time I have to say that the guys are actually good. They’re better live than recorded. Real Mayo. I was looking at the bassist the whole time (note: bass = daphne magnet). He’s good, his voice is okay and I love his stage presence. I just couldn’t keep my eyes off him. However, the attraction died when I learned that he has a girlfriend. Off limits!
Speaking of boys, I just found myself in a very confuzzling situation.
Recently I’ve been fancying this boy, right? The feeling is starting to die as he’s “ruining it” (-Camo). It=chance. Just when I was starting to like him, he disappears and disproves what he just confessed. Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I told him that I liked him back. Would that have changed things?
Then there’s this other guy whom I used to like talking to suddenly came back and just randomly blurted out an “i love you!” this afternoon even if I turned him down a long time ago, even if it’s been more than 4 months since we had real sensible talk, and even if we still haven’t seen each other yet. Ever. I missed the dude’s presence but that doesn’t spell l-o-v-e. Even though he’s very nice and I like being friends with him, I can’t imagine myself falling in love with a little portion of my computer’s lcd that projects his 100×100 px YM avatar.
I have this friend who used to push me into being more adventurous with boys. “There’s no harm in trying. Give it a chance.” I don’t know if I could apply it here. I don’t want to play with chances. I’m afraid to take risks. I can either choose to a) finally meet up with Mr. I-love-you, leave Mr. Invinsible and see where this goes, or b) ignore Mr. I-love-you then wait for Mr. Invinsible to appear so I can tell him what I feel.
Hmmmm. *thinks*
I don’t like either option. I don’t like to experiment with A because although the feeling is dying, I still fancy Mr. Invinsible and I don’t like the idea of meeting up with someone I’ve grown not to be comfortable with. I don’t like B either because I don’t want to find myself being a loser waiting for something which I feel I’m starting to lose. I’ve lost a lot of times and I don’t want to lose again. No, not this time.
How about adding C and D? Where C = find someone else. Like maybe I should see the guy who’s been persistently asking me out for coffee or just find another bassist dude whom I’ll have the hots for. Or D = take a vow of celibacy. NOT.
I’d easily advise to choose C if I were to suggest an answer to someone else. But being involved in this just makes it hard. I still can’t let go of the guy I have feelings for and I don’t want to ruin the friendship I have with someone whom I’m not in love with.
Ah. I so want to escape from this. I need a break. Really.
I don’t know what to do but I’m hoping for the best.
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Comments ( 5 )
let us enroll ourselves in a nunnery so we can all forget about problems like these. haha.
Camille added these pithy words on
Jan 19 09 at
1:54 pm
because they’re dolts who think that the illusion of safety can still save them. baaah, they think iit’s much special and serious that way daw.
i don’t believe it.
aki added these pithy words on
Jan 24 09 at
2:15 am
ah shit wrong entry.
i was commenting about the one about courtship XD
aki added these pithy words on
Jan 24 09 at
2:17 am
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